So, the space remains .

I don't know whether I'm feeling relieved,
Or disappointed.

In this space,
Soothing music in my ears-

All of a sudden,
I'm reminded of what I was.
I loved listening,
How could I forget.

Like the way I forgot -
Too many things.

In this space,
Soothing music in my ears-

The screaming old lady beside me,
But I feel calm.
A sense of shame, guilt,
Yet a strange clarity in my head.

It's clearly safe here,
Unlike that smaller space.

In this space,
Soothing music in my ears-

This is not the real world!
Which I miss, but am afraid of.

I'd face the music,
and soothe my fears,

But I'm scared

to

leave

this

space.

I'm officially screwed. Don't call me to go out, don't call me to do anything, don't call me unless you've a magic pill that will enable me to NOT SLEEP and be fully ALERT 24 hours a day.

Even if I spend every single waking moment doing work, I don't think I'll ever finish anything.

I'm going to be an anti-social and I'll slack my ass off in December. Bye.

Randy Gardner still holds the world record for 264 hours of sleeplessness as a 17 year old kid back in 1964.

'Randy Gardner holds a Guinness world record for the longest period of time a human being has intentionally gone without sleep not using stimulants of any kind. In 1964, as a 17-year-old high school student in San Diego, California, Gardner stayed awake for 264 hours (11 days) with the help of friends, TV reporters, and shooting hoops. On his final day without sleep, Gardner presided over a press conference where he spoke without slurring or stumbling his words and in general appeared to be in excellent health. “I wanted to prove that bad things didn’t happen if you went without sleep,” said Gardner. “I thought, ‘I can break that (Peter Tripp’s 1959) record and I don’t think it would be a negative experience.’” Sleep experts now believe that such sleep deprivation stunts are dangerous'

I wish I could break this record. If only I can stay awake until the end of the semester, I'd be able to finish my work.

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Full time geek

I can't believe it, but... I've been hanging out in the public library/school library for the past three days. Simply being there (on the sofa of course!) until it closes, and then taking a long walk home/back to PGP.

I've come to like the quiet, of being alone to sort out my thoughts and simply, calm down. And of course, the air-con... a break from my stuffy room.(I swear it's so stuffy that I start perspiring the moment I get back.)

It's Childrens' Day, a new month. I've a new resolution- try to take things slowly. Worrying about the next thing isn't going to make the task at hand any easier. And well, to stop being such a kid that won't grow up.

After half a month away from it, I'm strangely attracted to the piano again. Even playing the same thing over and over again... just takes everything off the mind. Once again, I'm thankful that I never gave up on it after Grade 4 (mainly due to constant arguments with my beloved piano teacher because of my terrible attitude).

On a brighter note, Zara Lee made Zara specs yesterday! I wasn't biased... it happened to be the one that suited me best. My mum thinks it's flashy.