Look at the time!

Yes, look at the time! If Blogger's clock is accurate, you'd notice it's 1:43 a.m. From there, it doesn't take much IQ to come to the inevitable conclusion - CHENGWEI CANNOT SLEEP.

Beware, whinning ahead-

Why can't I sleep Why can't I sleep Why can't I sleep?!!!! My goodness, last night, after tossing in bed for about 2 hours, I gave out and got Ray to walk out to NUS to get some food. Came back, and still didn't sleep for the next hour. Brilliant. And today, after having lessons until 8p.m., walking from Fong Seng back to PGP, helping Kevin with Econs - I was so drained that I thought I'd just snooze the moment I hit the sack. But NO! 1.5 hours later, here I am, giving up, done with blog surfing, done with reading Gilmore Girls Transcripts, done with doing anything my tired mind can possibly handle...

Anyway, while trying to explain taxaton, AVCs, MCs, ATCs etc etc, I was actually pretty amused by the amount of Econs I actually remember. Maybe K didn't understand wtheck I was saying half the time, but still. It's been one and a half years since I even touched these things. Old Mr Barnard, in all his off-syllabus ramblings, must have done me some good after all. Hopefully, that translates into: don't need to spend so much time studying for BSP 1005 exams.

Speaking of which, I miss the good old Barnard days, despite the fact that after 1.5 years, the one single most vivid memory which remains is him drawing the PPB curve on the board, comparing it to the shape of his beer belly, and exclaiming 'BIG IS BEAUTIFUL!' And using 'Tiger Juice' to illustrate demand and supply curves.

And what do I get now? Someone who speaks like Yan Can Cook, who finished Lecture 2 in the 4th Lecture, who goes 'Is this intuitive? Is this correct?' Oh yea, not to forget... For the past whole month, I only recently realized that he doesn't go 'Is this CRAP?', but it sounds that way because he can't pronouce 'correct'. But hey, at least I get to have fun laughing and imitating him all the time. This marks a very bitchy sem, considering I spend BSP 1005 lects imitating Yan-Can-Cook, MKT 1003 Lecture imitating the lecturer's shrill voice and speculating her real age under that make-up, USS 2105 seminars scoffing at a certain 'Salsa Girl'... *runs and hides in a corner*

Someday, I'll be a better, nicer, sympathetic person, free from being bitchy, mean, unsympathetic. Someday, I'll wake up and say 'Life is Beautiful'.

Look at the time!

Yes, look at the time! If Blogger's clock is accurate, you'd notice it's 1:43 a.m. From there, it doesn't take much IQ to come to the inevitable conclusion - CHENGWEI CANNOT SLEEP.

Beware, whinning ahead-

Why can't I sleep Why can't I sleep Why can't I sleep?!!!! My goodness, last night, after tossing in bed for about 2 hours, I gave out and got Ray to walk out to NUS to get some food. Came back, and still didn't sleep for the next hour. Brilliant. And today, after having lessons until 8p.m., walking from Fong Seng back to PGP, helping Kevin with Econs - I was so drained that I thought I'd just snooze the moment I hit the sack. But NO! 1.5 hours later, here I am, giving up, done with blog surfing, done with reading Gilmore Girls Transcripts, done with doing anything my tired mind can possibly handle...

Anyway, while trying to explain taxaton, AVCs, MCs, ATCs etc etc, I was actually pretty amused by the amount of Econs I actually remember. Maybe K didn't understand wtheck I was saying half the time, but still. It's been one and a half years since I even touched these things. Old Mr Barnard, in all his off-syllabus ramblings, must have done me some good after all. Hopefully, that translates into: don't need to spend so much time studying for BSP 1005 exams.

Speaking of which, I miss the good old Barnard days, despite the fact that after 1.5 years, the one single most vivid memory which remains is him drawing the PPB curve on the board, comparing it to the shape of his beer belly, and exclaiming 'BIG IS BEAUTIFUL!' And using 'Tiger Juice' to illustrate demand and supply curves.

And what do I get now? Someone who speaks like Yan Can Cook, who finished Lecture 2 in the 4th Lecture, who goes 'Is this intuitive? Is this correct?' Oh yea, not to forget... For the past whole month, I only recently realized that he doesn't go 'Is this CRAP?', but it sounds that way because he can't pronouce 'correct'. But hey, at least I get to have fun laughing and imitating him all the time. This marks a very bitchy sem, considering I spend BSP 1005 lects imitating Yan-Can-Cook, MKT 1003 Lecture imitating the lecturer's shrill voice and speculating her real age under that make-up, USS 2105 seminars scoffing at a certain 'Salsa Girl'... *runs and hides in a corner*

Someday, I'll be a better, nicer, sympathetic person, free from being bitchy, mean, unsympathetic. Someday, I'll wake up and say 'Life is Beautiful'.

My door!

A Door Just Opened On A Street
Poem lyrics by Emily Dickinson.

A door just opened on a street--
I, lost, was passing by--
An instant's width of warmth disclosed
And wealth, and company.

The door as sudden shut, and I,
I, lost, was passing by,--
Lost doubly, but by contrast most,
Enlightening misery.

haha, being the most strange and quirky person that I am, I stuck this poem outside my hostel room door. =)

Today, I spoke of my ideal life to a friend, as I've had so many times before. I can't believe how simple it is - all I want is to be free enough, free enough to wake up every morning (not too early), read the newspapers leisurely, drinking a cup of coffee. Or be free enough, free enough to reach home by 4:30pm everyday, to read the newspapers leisurely, drinking a cup of coffee.

Talk about being strange. I don't know what it is about coffee and newspapers that I like so much. It's probably a combination of being lazy, coupled with a pseudo intellectual feel.

Oh, for the first time more than half a year, I went swimming yesterday during my lunch break! Now, all I'm dreaming off swimming on a nice sunny day. From now on, I shall try to swim every Wednesday afternoon.

Slacking

Right now, Chengwei is oscillating between typing this post, reading The Straits Times, msn-ing and watching Memoirs of a Geisha. Such is the epitome of my refusal to do any work - do those things you normally do when you're procrastinating, all together.

Thanks to CNY, the week has passed so fast! I don't quite know whether it's a good thing, because I'm constantly reminded of how time flies. Cliche of all cliches, but it does! It's been 4 weeks into school and I'm so scared that it'll pass, week after week, while I slack on and on (and on and on and on and on)... and then, exams. And like I did last semester, I'll freak out and wonder why I didn't read any of my textbooks. Oh, but then again, while freaking out last semester, I still had the time to hang out in Holland Village, start watching Channel 8 Dramas and get hooked onto surfing friendster profiles and blogs.

Bleah. No drive, no drive, not driven at all! But I don't even feel like being driven. So the policy is to simply do what is necessary. haha, I've been speaking in Econs lingo with a friend lately - so my policy would be to optimize scarce resource allocation (i.e. time) by minimizing opportunity cost in terms of time spent studying...

No drive, but I'm feeling rather glad lately, because I think, I might just have finally found a direction. No longer aimless because I know what I want to do! (Ask me yourself.) And during lectures on Thursday, I came to a very strange conclusion- that I might major in operations and supply chain management, which I believe is the most un-Chengwei major of all Business Majors. But I've been thinking of it so much lately that I actually touched my Operations Management Tb today. =)

Last night, I was talking to a friend who's waiting for his 'O' Level results. And all of a sudden, I realized it's been almost a year since I was waiting for my 'A' Level results. I can't believe it's been a year, a year since I broke 1 espresso cup and an olive oil bottle at work when I realized results was coming out, a year since I actually cared enough about results. I fear the arrival of March, because-

it'd be a year, since everything.

Sigh

Sigh. This blog is soon going to turn into an archive of all the nights I suffer from insomnia! Why oh why, I've slept perfectly well over the past few CNY days... so why! Why oh why, why is it so that I can't sleep tonight, when I've to wake up at 8am for classes tomorrow! Why why why, I've been trying to sleep since 1am and I just don't. This is so frustrating.

One last rant before I try to sleep again - For the first time in my life, I wanted to watch a play that's in Mandarin...I was inspired after reading Life's review of , some East-meets-West existentialist drama... and it's completely sold out! Fate must have known that even if its good, I wouldn't have understood enough to recognize it and therefore, do not deserve to watch it.