Of sleepless nights

I recall, one sleepless night, a few months back. I told a friend I was going to try keeping a blog as I was bored from all the sleepless nights. And he said, "Yea I should! Longwinded people like us should blog." I typed one miserable post, and decided it just wasn't my cup of tea. The sleepless nights have returned-so I try again.

I amaze myself at times-but you know what? Sleepless nights are stressful... the pre-sleeping stress about not being able to sleep later, the stress of knowing you must fall asleep because you've a major examination/appointment the very next day, the stress from wondering why you just don't go to sleep, the stress from trying so hard to fall asleep...but that's not the worst part. Here's the worst part-

In the darkness of the night, you can't run away from the truth. In the darkness of a sleepless night, you see yourself in a light you've never seen before, and your feel like your thoughts are all out there, illuminated by one single beam of light, in the darkness. You see yourself in a different light, but it casts a dark shadow upon you. (No wonder I can't sleep)

Today, someone said to me, "I can see you like to run a lot."
I replied, "You mean physically run? Or metaphorically?"
"Erm, both."

Strange. But it's time to get fit and run again. And be happy, and smile while I run, I promise. =)

Time to try to sleep again, but not before adding- Christmas is coming! This Christmas, I promise, I promise to let all the special people know how much they mean. And make everyone happy.

'For oft, when on my couch I lie In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.' - Wordsworth