The Illusive Illusion

Today, someone commented that I seem very happening...

...and it so happens that I'm one of the most completely unhappening people I know.

But I'm 19, only 19, already 19, already turning 20 in about 5 months time. This should be the time of our lives, and maybe, I'll find some way to make it so...

or is it all just an illusion? Half sane, half mad, stark raving sane - I think that's one of the most perfect descriptions I've heard of human beings so far.