Miserable
I'm actually blogging because I'm too lazy to start catching up on my tutorials.
It's been a week and I'm still sick... feels like I'm getting worse and worse again. After coughing from Monday to Wednesday, I started having terrible headaches yesterday... really felt like dying through UIT 2204 lesson, so I went to the students' lounge to sleep after that. For once, I couldn't really care less about how I looked. Just took off my shoes, cuddled up in one sofa, covered myself with my windbreaker and slept, in the most unglamourous way possible. When I finally got back to pee gee pee after dinner, I actually let myself go to bed at 10pm, hoping that I'll wake up all recovered... and I was still sick today. :( My head was throbbing all through Econs lecture (which was totally useless), so I came back and slept somemore...
At least the headache's finally gone, for now.
Perhaps it's all in the mind- I'm sick because I'm too lazy to do any work. I haven't done most of my tutorials, which will probably remain undone until next week...since I promised Steven I'll go to work tomorrow and Sunday... sigh, I agreed to work on Sunday only because I felt bad for not turning up last week. If I had the choice, I'd rather stay at home on Sunday, since it's the only day I get to eat with my family. :( I called my mum just now to whine about the headaches, and she kept saying that I should just stop working. Which is pretty true, except that... I don't seem to want to. Technically, it's a waste of time and it's not like I'm desperately in need of money in the first place. Besides, the pay is pathetic, and I spend it off at Zara on my way to work at Orchard.
Which leaves one question - Why do I continue working? Truth is, I don't know. I could tell Steven that I simply have no time to help him, but I try to find time. Maybe I'm just too nice, so nice that I feel bad about not working when they're so short of people. Maybe whatever little bit I earn makes me feel less bad about throwing so much money into all my earrings, clothes, shoes, bags. Maybe I want to believe that I really can 'do everything', as Dingsheng commented today - study, play piano, run, shop, watch movies, work. Most of the time, I just think waitressing it quite fun, for no reason at all. When I go to NYC, I'll probably try to get a waitressing job, which I heard, it pretty lucrative in the states.
I haven't been able to run for the whole week, which really leaves me feeling like a pig. Really hate it when I fall sick, stop running, lose all my stamina, than start huffing and puffing like I've never exercised in my whole life when I start again. The air has been pretty cool these days, can't wait until I'm well enough to go out and run.
I thought my Econs tutor was nice, but I've changed my mind. It's bad enough that we get awarded marks for so-called 'class participation', which makes people ask stupid questions, make dumb remarks, post stuff in the forum which all really say the same thing, just phrased in different ways. To a certain extent, that's understandable - look, we have to find some way to deal with the fact that you lose 10% of grade if you really can't find very much to say in class. Fine, but the econs tutor does is so blatantly! I felt like I was in kindergarten today... answer a question correctly, she hands you the attendance list, and you literally put '1 mark' (or '2 marks' if you're a guy-she seems to like guys) next to your name. So it becomes akin to a game of 'the fastest hand raiser'. My poor project group... as if it wasn't bad enough that we had to do an impromptu class presentation because the tutor forgot to tell us that we were the first group behorehand (and she still had the nerve to tell us to hurry up while we were trying to figure out the answers to write on the board)... think we were all pretty traumatized by her handing over the attendance sheet to the fastest hand-raiser in class to put marks next to his name. Of course, we couldn't be bothered to join in the competition.
Some people did ask pretty good questions... some answers to those would be helpful, but no, they didn't get to write '1 mark' because they did not provide any 'right answers' to their tutorial questions. Worst still, the tutor didn't bother to clarfy their doubts because they were not in the tutorial questions. This is really the most useless tutorial I've ever had in my life - I might as well just download the answers off the IVLE to read.
We're undergraduates, but sometimes, it feels like we're being treated like kids.
It's been a week and I'm still sick... feels like I'm getting worse and worse again. After coughing from Monday to Wednesday, I started having terrible headaches yesterday... really felt like dying through UIT 2204 lesson, so I went to the students' lounge to sleep after that. For once, I couldn't really care less about how I looked. Just took off my shoes, cuddled up in one sofa, covered myself with my windbreaker and slept, in the most unglamourous way possible. When I finally got back to pee gee pee after dinner, I actually let myself go to bed at 10pm, hoping that I'll wake up all recovered... and I was still sick today. :( My head was throbbing all through Econs lecture (which was totally useless), so I came back and slept somemore...
At least the headache's finally gone, for now.
Perhaps it's all in the mind- I'm sick because I'm too lazy to do any work. I haven't done most of my tutorials, which will probably remain undone until next week...since I promised Steven I'll go to work tomorrow and Sunday... sigh, I agreed to work on Sunday only because I felt bad for not turning up last week. If I had the choice, I'd rather stay at home on Sunday, since it's the only day I get to eat with my family. :( I called my mum just now to whine about the headaches, and she kept saying that I should just stop working. Which is pretty true, except that... I don't seem to want to. Technically, it's a waste of time and it's not like I'm desperately in need of money in the first place. Besides, the pay is pathetic, and I spend it off at Zara on my way to work at Orchard.
Which leaves one question - Why do I continue working? Truth is, I don't know. I could tell Steven that I simply have no time to help him, but I try to find time. Maybe I'm just too nice, so nice that I feel bad about not working when they're so short of people. Maybe whatever little bit I earn makes me feel less bad about throwing so much money into all my earrings, clothes, shoes, bags. Maybe I want to believe that I really can 'do everything', as Dingsheng commented today - study, play piano, run, shop, watch movies, work. Most of the time, I just think waitressing it quite fun, for no reason at all. When I go to NYC, I'll probably try to get a waitressing job, which I heard, it pretty lucrative in the states.
I haven't been able to run for the whole week, which really leaves me feeling like a pig. Really hate it when I fall sick, stop running, lose all my stamina, than start huffing and puffing like I've never exercised in my whole life when I start again. The air has been pretty cool these days, can't wait until I'm well enough to go out and run.
I thought my Econs tutor was nice, but I've changed my mind. It's bad enough that we get awarded marks for so-called 'class participation', which makes people ask stupid questions, make dumb remarks, post stuff in the forum which all really say the same thing, just phrased in different ways. To a certain extent, that's understandable - look, we have to find some way to deal with the fact that you lose 10% of grade if you really can't find very much to say in class. Fine, but the econs tutor does is so blatantly! I felt like I was in kindergarten today... answer a question correctly, she hands you the attendance list, and you literally put '1 mark' (or '2 marks' if you're a guy-she seems to like guys) next to your name. So it becomes akin to a game of 'the fastest hand raiser'. My poor project group... as if it wasn't bad enough that we had to do an impromptu class presentation because the tutor forgot to tell us that we were the first group behorehand (and she still had the nerve to tell us to hurry up while we were trying to figure out the answers to write on the board)... think we were all pretty traumatized by her handing over the attendance sheet to the fastest hand-raiser in class to put marks next to his name. Of course, we couldn't be bothered to join in the competition.
Some people did ask pretty good questions... some answers to those would be helpful, but no, they didn't get to write '1 mark' because they did not provide any 'right answers' to their tutorial questions. Worst still, the tutor didn't bother to clarfy their doubts because they were not in the tutorial questions. This is really the most useless tutorial I've ever had in my life - I might as well just download the answers off the IVLE to read.
We're undergraduates, but sometimes, it feels like we're being treated like kids.
Chengwei looked out at 10:37 pm
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