Undecided

I can't decide whether I'm contented these days -

On one hand, everything seems to hectic these days, rush from hostel to lectures, lectures to lunch, grabbing coffee from business before dashing to USP block, lectures to badminton, lectures to piano practise...and even hostel to home. And it seems like there's so much going on - preparing for Exxonmobil concert, Health and Fitness stuff, piano practice, tutorials, work, Inter-faculty badminton, trying to meet up with friends...rushrushrushrushrush.

And so much coming up, 5 mid-terms, programming test, 3 projects, essays, probably a lot more Health and Fitness stuff, mapping modules and planning for exchange (which I've been putting off everyday)...and in two months time, 4 exams in 2 days.

I feel so stressed when I take hours just to do any tutorial that requires Microsoft Excel, don't understand Econs Lectures, don't know how to do Econ's tutorials, can't understand Financial Accounting for nuts until I've attended lectures + read the textbook (which obviously doesn't happen much)... and today, when Bridge project was so unbelievably boring, when playing the Copland piece with my piano partner seemed so difficult- all the syncopations are driving me nuts, switch off for a split second, and I fall out of tune...feels like I'll never get it right.

And yet, I feel good when I'm playing badminton with my good friends (Lynn + Serene), find work really fun, when I can actually attend NUSPE sessions on Friday... and being able to make time to run when the weather is cool is always refreshing/relaxing, when I meet an old friend while running at the track, run with a friend round the track on 2 breezy evenings at a go...

I'm glad to see people around school, when I find time to sit down and read silly stuff like bimbotic, thrashy novels (very inane, but at least I don't have to use my brains), Shape Magazine (very interesting, as I recently discovered)...

This afternoon, after a very sleepy bridge-building (yes, we've to build bridges out of ice-cream sticks.) session with my project mates, I came back, spent two hours doing work... feeling completely contented and happy because I was munching on English muffins, dipping them into a hot cup of Cafe Nova... and while being sick and tired of Copland, I was glad to see some NUSPE people come by, to have a friend help coach me with my playing...

Everything feels completely great and messy, like a piece of cake and shit, all at the same time. Maybe what I need is 8 days a week, to throw in time to see my friends, to go shopping, wo watch movies... then I'll be able to say that I'm happy and jolly.

They say a women's weight is a secret, but mine's definitely not. Since everyone likes to ask so much, here's the answer to every question-

How tall are you? 1.74m (sometimes 1.75m)
How heavy are you now? 55kg
Did you lose 10 kg? NO.
How much weight did you lose? around 2 or 3kg I think.
How did you lose weight? If I knew, I'll co-write a book with QY so that we can get rich and quit school immediately.
Do you exercise? Yes, I've exercised a lot all my life.
Do you eat? Yes, breakfast, lunch, dinner, lots of fruits, lots of bread, horlicks before I sleep every night, lots of coffee, lots of teh bing, lots of pork floss buns (sigh, Bread Talk's Wasabi Pork Floss bun is gone), lots of paos from YIH because they're the best, lots of tau sar piah, lots of biscuits...and lots and lots of homecooked food when I go home every week.
So what's the secret? erm...the only thing I can think of is, I stopped drinking so much Diet Coke? (Incidentally, I drink Diet Coke because I like its taste.)

There goes! haha... off for my run!