One more day to new year, one more week to New York City...

For the longest time, I thought this was exactly what I wanted for myself - pack up, go somewhere new, find some excitement and independence and what-not. But right now, I'm just dreading next Sunday...

Life feels so hectic when it's all about packing, unpacking, repacking... these days, I don't even like shopping anymore - can't buy my normal clothing since I'm already having a big headache choosing the clothes I want to bring, keep looking for warm clothings, pants, vacumn packs, gloves, thermal wear...

On Thursday, I went to Spageddies to return my uniform / collect my pay... and all of a sudden, I regretted quiting. Well, circumstances doesn't leave me with much of a choice, but I felt a tinge of sadness when people started saying bye to me. I was not really close to any of my colleagues the second time I worked there... too many new faces. But I realized, there has come to be a sense of familiarity with the place, the people... I don't talk to many people, but I'll still miss them... and some of my younger colleagues are really so adorable! Like Kaifeng and Zoey, who immediately told me 'Zara now got sale' the moment they saw me. I still remember Kaifeng asked me if there was a Zara in New York when I told her I was leaving! Chef Andrew gave me a good luck handshake before I left that day... which felt inexplicably depressing and comforting at the same time. And I realized I haven't seen Sebas around the restaurant for the longest time... I've always been terribly fearful of him, but I would have liked to say bye anyway. In fact, I would have liked to say bye to everyone, but it was getting quite busy, so I just walked out...

I still remember my first day at work... I looked forward to it so much, but within the first hour of work, I thought to myself, 'Shit, why the hell do I want to do this... stand for hours, hold so many dirty plates, dont' know anyone, don't know what to say to anyone...' And I would wash my hands whenever I touched a plate! I think everyone found me very stuck up because I kept to myself all the time... I just wasn't used to the company.

I thought I was all ready to quit one week into the job, but I'm thankful I didn't...For I learnt so much working there. And met so many people... and a few who changed my life forever.