Something wrong with blogger!

Blogger doesn't allow me to post pictures! So annoyed.

I spent the night re-reading people's old blog posts, my old blog posts. I realized, there was almost never a time when I was completely happy. So why should I expect anything different now? I've had this shit, that shit, weird shit... mostly in the mind, so now, what's the big deal?

Sigh. I screwed up all weekend. I don't know understand how I manage to do things, know that I'm going to hurt myself and regret it all in a few moments, but do it anyway, simply because... I don't know what else to do for that moment. And yes, this is with regards to TSP. It's been no more than small this weekend, but ahhh, one step at a time, one bite at a time, it's Monday tomorrow, new week, new start.

And I don't understand WHY THE HELL I CAN'T EAT THREE MEALS A DAY, like normal people do. Singapore's killed my complexion, and the biscuits aren't helping. Shoo biscuits shoo, get out of my way! In fact, anything remotely heaty should disappear from my face before I start looking like a monster.

On the brighter side, yay, I ran all week. I can't say I enjoy it very much anymore... when you're unfit and flabby, it feels like such a chore. Nevertheless, I ran to the reservoir today, and while running by the water, I felt, for a brief moment, what I used to feel - the bliss to be running with the wind against my face, the calm of the water, and nothing else matters. Brother's going to wake me up again tomorrow, (*major groan*), go me go! I'll treat myself to a cup of coffee if I run tomorrow.

To my dearest Panda friend- Rereading my old blog, your old blog, really brought back so many happy memories. I just wanted you to know that I really admire you for everything you are, your strength... and am grateful for your friendship, your support, just for being there and listening to me grouse, even if my grousings these days surrounds the same old thing. I know I have to get through this, because... when the next exams ends, we need to hit town happily together again yea? Re-reading everything just reminded me of how important you were/are to my life, and that I need to be strong, simply because, I want to be a friend to you too, the same friend. =) This week shall officially be Panda week (shall put it in my hp!), shall try not to screw up. If you know who you are, drop me a msg to remind me yea? =)

I want to post pictures of my meetup with Lynn, Darren and Ray at Settlers! Ugh, stupid Blogger. I love Settlers. I wish I could go there everyday, all the fun will probably solve most of my worries.