A delightfully purple day
I thought it might end up a screwy day, but no. :) I do feel very blessed today, really. I'm trying my best to remind myself to be thankful.
I was pretty much losing my will this morning, half prepared to ruin the day with my own hands. But yay.
Talking to EB this morning was somewhat discouraging, but insightful. I feel like I've really come quite far, but I need to spend some time rethinking what I want for myself, and whether I'm ready to break out of my comfort zone, and stop fooling myself. I really do want to break free, so why do I keep wavering? But I ended the conversation feeling somewhat stronger- I'll try standing up for a week first. After all, how much can happen in a week?
I was somewhat disappointed in my poor showing during piano lesson today. Or rather, I didn't play up to my own expectations. But it was rather insightful. I've always known I'm a sloppy player - which stems from my impatience. I'm often careless with key signatures, time signatures, notes, fingering etc, and I expect myself to get by and eventually be able to play something fluidly. And I hate stopping when I play something wrongly, so I end up repeating my mistakes. I shall attempt to slow down, and learn to be patient.
Otherwise, I'm so glad I started lessons again, after so long. Today, I discovered that in spite of playing and learning on my own, I've indeed forgotten quite a lot of things, and have so much to learn. (Feels so sad that I'm so old already.) And this time, it's my choice to learn, and put in the effort, because I really want to.
I've been rather anxious about something since last night, and while gymming, I received a piece of good news. It was almost unbelievable! CHRISTINE I LOVE YOU. =) I'm really quite happy about it, and I wish I could share the joy with everyone I love. And I celebrated with a 28min cycle on the stationery bike.
Followed by treating myself to a bottle of coke light. I am officially an EX-coke light addict. While I used to down litres after litres, I felt so bloated after 400ml today. SO BLOATED. =)
Today was a reminder that I am indeed, a very fortunate girl. I really felt like I was being watched over, and saved from myself.
And so I said a word of thanks.
I was pretty much losing my will this morning, half prepared to ruin the day with my own hands. But yay.
Talking to EB this morning was somewhat discouraging, but insightful. I feel like I've really come quite far, but I need to spend some time rethinking what I want for myself, and whether I'm ready to break out of my comfort zone, and stop fooling myself. I really do want to break free, so why do I keep wavering? But I ended the conversation feeling somewhat stronger- I'll try standing up for a week first. After all, how much can happen in a week?
I was somewhat disappointed in my poor showing during piano lesson today. Or rather, I didn't play up to my own expectations. But it was rather insightful. I've always known I'm a sloppy player - which stems from my impatience. I'm often careless with key signatures, time signatures, notes, fingering etc, and I expect myself to get by and eventually be able to play something fluidly. And I hate stopping when I play something wrongly, so I end up repeating my mistakes. I shall attempt to slow down, and learn to be patient.
Otherwise, I'm so glad I started lessons again, after so long. Today, I discovered that in spite of playing and learning on my own, I've indeed forgotten quite a lot of things, and have so much to learn. (Feels so sad that I'm so old already.) And this time, it's my choice to learn, and put in the effort, because I really want to.
I've been rather anxious about something since last night, and while gymming, I received a piece of good news. It was almost unbelievable! CHRISTINE I LOVE YOU. =) I'm really quite happy about it, and I wish I could share the joy with everyone I love. And I celebrated with a 28min cycle on the stationery bike.
Followed by treating myself to a bottle of coke light. I am officially an EX-coke light addict. While I used to down litres after litres, I felt so bloated after 400ml today. SO BLOATED. =)
Today was a reminder that I am indeed, a very fortunate girl. I really felt like I was being watched over, and saved from myself.
And so I said a word of thanks.
Chengwei looked out at 7:57 pm
3 Comments:
Hi I know it was a tough session yesterday but it was necessary. It is just not good to let yourself prolong the illness when you could step up and get better. You can do it. :)
Hi Evenlyn. =) trying. I'll E-mail you soon before I go to Vietnam.
Have fun in Vietnam. Leave the illness here and go have a vacation away from ED. I know you are off caffeine...but you shld have the vietnamese drip coffee...esply the iced verson...really really nice.
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