Humility

Things have changed, and I hope it's not just me.

As I grow older, and open my eyes to the things around me, I increasingly believe that humility is essential to a good character. It's great to be be self assured, respectable in fact, but without a sense of humility to keep one down to earth, it reeks of distasteful arrogance.

I think I'd have more respect for the fool who is able to laugh at himself, and learn, and more.

Interestingly, arrogance may not be completely unacceptable. One can be aware of his arrogance, an yet never take himself to seriously. I asked an acquaintance what it means to 'not take yourself too seriously', an his reply was something along the lines of, 'to be able to laugh at yourself... it doesn't mean you don't try hard or have faith in achieving, but when you fail, you move on.' I'm inclined to agree.

Or maybe, it's just me. My bitchiness unleased by that pride in me, the insecurity of having my weaknesses juxtaposed upon that which falls short of perfection, but is nevertheless, less imperfect. I hope that is not the case.

I used to have quite a bit of pride - unjustified pride. I disliked being criticized, or corrected, and felt it my duty to defend myself when attacked. But I dare say I've been greatly humbled by many events. If I had Ku teach me in my younger days, and be stopped at practically every bar/note/rest, I don't think I would have been particularly receptive.

I'm trying my utmost to pretend it never happened. But once tainted, it's difficult to look at things through that clear, perspicuous lens again. Sure, I still respect you now, but respect lost will be hard to regain.

The day's events, though trivial, has left me strangely saddened. But it was made better by catching up with Erwin, Cat and Taitong over dinner, as well as a run along a different route with Boon.