In approximately 20 hours, I'll be performing for the fifth time, and my third time with Linli. It's been a long long long ride. Wish me luck!

Once tomorrow is over, I no longer have any excuses not to do any work. The whole mid-semester break has been flying by, I've officially achieved nothing, except for FINALLY figuring out the optimal way to play these two lines in Mars.

When I'm not practising, or running, or eating, or bathing, then... I'm sleeping. I'm perpetually sleepy and I hate it. I thought I'd read a little this morning, but I promptly rolled back into bed until Erwin dragged me out to coffee. He never fails to amaze me with his ability to talk (rubbish) non-stop.

Besides the lack of productivity, I'm rather pleased with myself this week. It's a great mid-semester break, in comparison to the last crazy one. Everytime I remember to stop and reflect, I'm so damned grateful I've gotten to where I am now, when I once thought I would never get out of that rock bottom. Sometimes, I ask myself whether I regret everything... I now am beginning to see the consequences. Today, I concluded it's irrelevant, because it seemed the only way at that time.

You're really one of the most important people in my life, and it makes me so sad you'd think like that. I still love you, really.