It's good to fall once in awhile. It's a reminder that one failure doesn't mean I am back at Square 1.

My mouse and I spoke of 'growing out of it'. And I think it applies to me too, that I'd eventually just outgrow all these dangerous child's play. For I'm increasingly aware how pointless it is. Really, 1.5 years of insanity and I have gotten nowhere, except maybe closer to hell. It'll be one big fat lie to say that I'm completely ready, but I dare say, I've already let go of the past a bit more.

She says it'd be great if we could just leave, escape to somewhere new - and we'll let go of everything. It's true, but I can do no such thing. For I have held out so long for these people I hold dear, and it's only right I be here for them.

That's said, I certainly wouldn't mind working overseas. It's just that, I cannot imagine myself leaving for good. This is where I belong - not just Singapore, but where you, you and you are.

I've more or less resolved the burdens of the past week. My mind is at peace again. It's time to start things on a clean slate.