Jaded

Are we made to be that different, or is it just that some people... just live in their own worlds. Or maybe, I'm just not made to understand it. I've been forced to stop, and reflect... and I think we all should do that now and then, and see that we act like the adults we are.

I skipped church last week, and went back today. And it was good. Strangely, the sermon really spoke to me, and reminded me of things so important, things I'm trying to overcome. But I think it'd still take a lot for me to really take that leap of faith. For so long, I've been used to living by my own standards.

I say this everytime, but piano lesson was enjoyable as usual. I was playing something I have played so many times, twice as an examination performance. But still, I realized how many details I have missed out. From the moment I met Ku, even during coaching when I played for Dance, I'm always reminded how every note, every touch, every sound counts.

I made an important decision today. Difficult decision, but I've come to be quite firm about it. I only hope I have the confidence to see it through, and not be a let down. I've seen too much, to want to repeat it. And I was told it was 'great news' by the man himself.

Oh, and after my piano concert, my mum told me she talked to my ex-piano teacher - to get recommendations on upgrading our piano. I'm so thrilled. I guess they can see that I treat it seriously. =) My mum says if I get married, the piano must follow me. HAHA.