Sleepless

For the 5th night in a row, I can barely sleep. Aside from the pressure of impending academic doom, my heart and head feel so heavy they might crash right down to my feet. I dread the day it all resurfaces and explodes in my face.

Perhaps I brought all of this upon myself, or precipitated it. I miss the days when all I saw was a heart so still, and pure. When slumber was peaceful, and unintruded.

I am going to hide under my smelly blanket for two more hours, before heading to somewhere in school at 6am to resume the essays. I refuse to be broken by pain.