Hurt

Perhaps I'm petty, sensitive and unobjective-

But I realized, I've seen a very self-centered part of you. Or maybe I held overly high expectations, and am being quite a bitch for imposing them on others. Not that it changes the fact that you could have done better.

Anyway, NicNic came to my place to play with my DogDog yesterday. Being the Nerdylemon that he is, he brought a book and ended up reading some soci book at my dining table. Goodness gracious me. He took the coolest shot of me ever during dinner, but I can't upload it now!

I was SO TIRED during work today. I'm really quite disgusted at what a pig I can be. I slept early just to wake up for my 6am run, but I conveniently hit the snooze button on the alarm and went straight back to sleep. The next thing I knew, it was time to rush for work. Nevermind, most people would say six am for running/piano is unearthly, so fine, I can just forgive myself. During work, I was SO SLEEPY. After so much sleep, I was still nodding off during work, and had to head to the loo to take a short 5 min nap, TWICE. Seriously, sometimes I just want to nap at my desk.

Kebs thinks I've a sleep disorder- narcolepsy, characterized by uncontrollable urges to sleep in the day. Scary! I read up on its symptoms and two of them seems to match me-
1. hypnagogic hallucinations -- pre-sleep dreams
I'm not that sure, but I dream A LOT, even when I'm half awake, or when I'm doing my toilet naps.

2. Automatic behaviors -- such as, for example, doing something "automatically" and not remembering afterwards how you did it.
Not sure what this refers to, but I automatically talk in my sleep all the time, haha. And soemtimes, erm, I twitch in my sleep? (like unconsciously, but it wakes me up, lol)

I was so happy to scoot out of the office today, and headed to the gym for the first time in a week. Bad news here- the NUSS gym is CLOSING for a year in July. Like, OH MY GAWD, that's like the only meaning of my club membership. This gymmer was enthusiastically getting us to sign a petition, it better get through. And Freddie, the gym instructor, is gone. He called me briefly, and he's already got a job at Phillippines. Sigh. Really, things can change so quickly.

Post dinner with Kebs and BanBan, I went for a long long run. Made sure I was quite certain I hit 10km (except for the bit when I got a stomachache and had to stop for the loo, hate it when that happens while I am in the midst of my run). Felt good to be running again, after so many days, and I took the time to listen to my new Dvorak album. Heard Symphony No. 8 and Legends, beautiful. I love Czech music.

Oh, I set a record yesterday, I practised piano in three bouts- totaling three hours. That's amazing for me! To sit down and actually do separate hands practising, with metronome, at localized areas, for such a long time. The Grieg is getting better, but not coming along well and fast enough for my liking. I'm not concentrating on 2.5 pieces- Grieg, Beethoven, and Debussy (0.5 because this is last on my priority practise list).

On the battlefront, I've sort of been semi-lapsing the past few days. Not fully, but well, somewhat, near slips, just within the limits of my tolerance. Sigh. Grant me the strength to move on.