Goodness, I'm really a spiteful, petty girl. Still thinking, sulking, and brooding, but trying very hard to shut it all out since I've decided to forgive, forget, and learn to trust again. I only hope the person in question does his/her part, as promised.

Everything's almost good though- I got a good nights rest, practised this morning, and I read went on reading The Golden Compass, which is getting very interesting. I want to cuddle up again, and read, drink coffee, run, play piano. I would have something to read on my flight to Beijing. That is, if I'm not snoozing away in that cramped seat.

I'm really quite discouraged by my playing. It just sux, it improves, but it still generally sux. And I'm really impatient. I've already come a long way in terms of patience in practice, and really sitting down to look at the knitty gritty details, but I know I'm still such a long way from what I need, and way too often, I just give up and play through. =( Or else I never fail to feel like, when it matters most, when I am at lesson, and should be playing my best so that I can forge ahead and learn - I play the worst, and feel really dumb. It's really so frustrating sometimes.

I just had lunch with an acquaintance who will be leaving Singapore soon. It was very interesting, he told me a lot about serving the nation, giving to society- and kept reminding me that I'll be a great woman some day. haha