Disappointment. It's her own life, and not for me to judge. However, I cannot help but feel deeply disappointed, let down. Admist the times of despair, tears, I believed that there must have been a beautiful heart, just shrouded by dark things. And yet, I now only see the word 'selfish', much as I still care, love. Respect? I don't know. The things the folks have done, put up with... maybe she has her reasons, that I might never know. Even if such (spoilt) sweet carrots were dangled at my lips, I can't, I can't. For I don't deserve, and neither do they.

Since coming back, I've mainly been lazying, and practising. I was rather pleased with last night's performance. Hopefully today will provide greater satisfaction for everyone.