Me and my CCF in Beijing Day 14/15
Yesterday, I visited 南罗古乡after work. It's a little street of old hu2 tong4 (only recently found out it's not hu2 tong2), turned into little shops, restaurants, cafes and pubs, one of the new hangouts for Beijing-ers. I enjoyed walking through, and my companion and I stopped by a 'guitar bar' for a drink and to listen to some music. I tried translating some English songs into Chinese - such as bridge over troubled water. It all sounded so ridiculous, when translated in Chinese; I made the songs sound silly!
We then walked quite far, before settling for sichuan food for dinner. OH MY GAWD. I chose about 4 dishes (without rice) and they were HUGE. It was sufficient for my entire family to have a meal it they were all here. I think we ate about1/4 of the food, and it costs 60+ RMB. Amazing. I realize the Chinese don't mind wasting food; my friend told me that they like it big, even if it can't be finished. No way can I do that in Singapore - sheer waste of money (which I'm running short on, even here!)
After strolling back down the alley of 南罗古乡, we decided to go to 后海. I just visited lately, but liked it very much. It's much less crowded on a weekday, so I really enjoyed walking by the lake, and hearing the different music of each bar from the outside. One bar even had Chinese opera and stunt shows, it's so interesting! I just didn't like all the touting, which is a common sight here - people asking you to visit their bars every five minutes. We found a (really short) chair to sit down and chatted for a long time as I admired the colourful lights reflected on the lake. Nice. I bet if I were there in the day, I'd discover it's horribly dirty.
I discovered something! I'm very jumpy! The road at the alleys are very narrow, but cars and bicycles do drive through. So everytime something comes honking at my back, I jump. In the end, my friend let me walk on the inside instead. haha! My mum has always said I don't keep calm.
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I've been slipping out of control quite a bit, willingly, knowingly, willfully. And I don't quite know what to do. I absolutely hate it, and am tempted to blame all of life and fate for doing this to me - all these ups and downs. I don't think I'll ever be free - and even if the key to this cage were handed to me upon a golden plate, I'm not sure I could bring myself to take that leap, and then grab it. This is a crazy crazy world, filled with contradictions, indecision, and extremes - its people push away gd words and help sometimes, but then, live for love. They're are told they are vain, childish, selfish - perhaps, but also very misunderstood.
I can only move forward and backward in the cage and hope it expands.
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