I realized...

Perhaps I've been fighting alone. Pride aside, I've done nothing to deserve this, so the rest of life goes on. The usual struggles, work, and responsibilities.

Unconsciously, I have always believed that if there was hurt, I'd have to take it myself, on and on. For if I don't do it, no one will, and all that was ever there is lost for good. I've ever been through doing that for almost two years, and now - temptations are abound, but I don't want to do it that way. It's still there, but I know I can put it aside.

For my selfishness, is mine. Not to be imposed on those I love.

I can't wait to practice piano in an hour.

Don't reconsider the day I make the prerequisite. Do so the day you know what your heart wants.