The grass is not greener on the other side

I haven't chilled so long, so I decided to have a real chillout by running about 2.5 rounds NUS this evening, after getting back from piano class. Well, it was relatively chill, since I really let go of work and all other horrors (i.e. more work) and let myself just run to music for an hour. I do feel a lot better. 

This is so cheesy, but the olympic song 'Reach' played on my mp3 and I suddenly felt better. And also, Dance with me Tonight, from the movie Music and Lyrics by Hugh Grant. It sounds so dumb that a semi-purist like me can gain inspiration from a pop song, but I did. 

I know that it seems that the grass will grow
Better on the other side of the barb wire fence
But that other side is not in sight
So I’m fine with what I have now
If you’ll dance with me tonight

What’s the point of life
If risk is just a board game
You roll the dice
But you’re just hoping that the rules change
What’s the point if you can’t bring yourself to say
Things you wanna say like
Dance with me tonight

No, I am not planning to dance with anyone (yuck!), but I never noticed what it said about the grass always being greener on the other side, and being contented with the moment you're in. Suddenly, it occurred to me that in my whines about work and obligations, I've lost sight of how things have turned around for me. I've been on the grass on the other side, and it was no greener, if not completely barren. 

Just one year ago, at this point, I was still running about that barren land, but now, this is so much better, fresher. Which really means, I can just grin and bear with things now. 

Some people tell me I'm a superwoman, and I really hate it, becasue truth is, I am not. I just pick and choose things important to me. Perhaps others wonder how I can afford to start teaching piano to kids. Well, it's just once a week, and really, it keeps me sane. When I'm at work, I've no choice but to simply put everything else aside and teach my kids. And I'm the kind of person who needs good things to occupy myself for extended periods, before I steer myself into self destruction. 

Besides, I've some nice kids. There's a French girl who speaks very little English, and was really shy at first. But she has really opened up, and started counting with me, and singing sometimes. I just love her, and she's so pretty that I feel like buying her dresses to wear, haha! Last week, she asked her mother what my name was, and her mother made her ask me herself. She did it so shyly! aww. And there's another older girl, whom I like because she is quite humble, and really, has a good attitude. Nice too! Nothing like the prideful brat that I was in the past. 

I feel somewhat recharged. 

Oh, and more say they don't understand how I find the time to exercise. Well, don't watch TV, don't watch movies, don't watch videos on Youtube, dont' go out. Well, that is true of me now, but that's not really it - I know after I finish exercising, I feel happy and fresh. =) 

So, with mid sem break ending in one day, I trudge on.