Today, someone whom I respect very much said certain things which left me feeling very disappointed and crappy. Somehow, I don't like it when I'm not being treated seriously. Surely I don't live up to expectations sometimes (or maybe very often), but I have never approached it 'for fun'. 

Nevertheless, I always value frankness, so I can't complain. It's just the way I (privately) reacted to the situation. 

I think there's one thing people generally don't know about me - probably because its not a common trait, or because I was never like that in the past - I don't mind it when people talk down to me. Not that I think it's fine to talk down to people, but I don't get angry or agitated if people talk down to me. I only have two reactions - If I believe in the ability of the person in question, and value his words, I accept it as constructive criticism that I should learn from. If I think the person in question has no right, or doesn't know what he is talking about, I simply... tell myself the person is venting his insecurities by hurling nonsense at me, maybe whine about it to a friend, and then simply put it aside.  In short, being talked down to doesn't unnerve me, or cause very much distress. Just a thought that crossed my mind today. 

Anyway, piano lesson left me feeling quite pathetic today. I was made to play something which I haven't played for some time (been learning up my new Mozart)... and it just FRUSTRATES me that I can be so darn unfamiliar with the notes, and have to be told things I have been told before. Yea, I haven't practised, but still... I have even performed that piece before a few months back. Sometimes I don't believe how terrible I can be, and it leaves me really discouraged about my playing. :( Oh well, what to do, but work harder this week, and whenever I can. I am a hoax, a Nuspe president who can't play piano!

Speaking of talking down. Sometimes I talk down to myself quite a lot (well, obvious right). And that's probably the only time when talking down really gets to me. But then again, without such 'constructive criticism', sometimes we get all complacent and never ever move forward... 

I am going crazy! I ran 12km today and I felt like I haven't exercised. Almost went another round Bishan Park but decided to draw the line at there, and do CP. So much writing!